So for me this year is completely about well a mix of finding my self and expansion too. Kind of finding who I want to be and reaching for that. I have been miserable. Its sucked. I have felt bad about my self on all levels. I'm not a good enough person. Not a good enough friend. Not a good enough wife. I suck at most things and what I do have some pride in i'm mediocre at. I was beginning sentences with "I'm probably a bad person but...."
Wait why am I not good enough? Why am I bad?
The end of last year I realised who I don't want to be. I found myself saying over and over. "self, why are you not who you used to be?" The answer is that you change. You have to change its how the universe works. Even the planets and stars are not static. I can't stay the same person forever. If I dont have a clear idea of who I want to be then who I become will be unclear too. So I have made myself a planner that incorporates action, spirit and thoughts daily.
The end of last year I realised who I don't want to be. I found myself saying over and over. "self, why are you not who you used to be?" The answer is that you change. You have to change its how the universe works. Even the planets and stars are not static. I can't stay the same person forever. If I dont have a clear idea of who I want to be then who I become will be unclear too. So I have made myself a planner that incorporates action, spirit and thoughts daily.